I couldn't think of a more appropriate title for this post. So sorry to any of you that are offended by that kind of language.
So yes, bad news. No heartbeat. Gestational and yolk sac measuring only six weeks. Fuck. Same as last time. Only now this suggests a reoccurring problem, not just a fluke.
I am dealing. I am going for lunch and to day drink. I think I'm taking a few days off work.
They will wait for my period or induce it. Then testing for clotting issues is the next step. Yay! I get to enter recurrent pg loss testing. Great.
It's over. The hope, it's over, only to be replaced by bitterness. I am angry, Clark asked me who at and I'm not sure yet.