Tuesday, December 08, 2009

Where does the time go???

Well 6 months have come and gone and baby K is healthy and happy and BUSY!! She's rolling and trying hard to crawl. She is such a joy!! Of course I have the usual frustrations, not enough sleep and feeling Mommy burnout some of the time. I think I need to learn to leave her a bit more and get out. It's so hard for me to be away from her, but I am in need of some recharging.

But for the most part everyday is just a blessing with her. She has been a very happy, content baby and I am dreading the thoughts of returning to work, although that I know I will. We have started to contemplate baby #2 or at least giving it a try. We have not been using anything to prevent a pregnancy, but of course I haven't got pregnant yet. Although any sooner than now and I think I would have been a little overwhelmed!!

I'm heading back to the specialist in January, just to see what the plan of action would be. Would he want me back on the Met? I have 2 frozen blasts so we'll use those first, although I'm not optimistic about them surviving the thaw. Ideally I'd like to get pg again sometime around July or August so they would be about 2 years apart and I'll deliver around my 35th birthday, but we know how planning these things goes. I make plans and God laughs! So we'll see...

I'm thinking about shutting down this blog or moving on somewhere else, the entire focus and purpose of why I started this blog has changed and I'm not sure anybody is actually reading anymore, although I can't blame them with my sporadic posting. It served such a great purpose during such a trying time in my life but me and so many things have changed since then, I feel I need to change it too. I'll see how ambitious I get.

That's about it for now just enjoying one day at a time and looking forward to the holidays!!!

Thursday, September 10, 2009

This and That...

Well, things are ticking along. Time flies with a little one. She is successfully sleeping through the night, now if I could only get her to nap during the day. We are still hanging in, not much new to report.

Growing like a weed and started on pablum. Everyday is a new adventure and I'm loving every minute of it. I'm still checking in on my blog buds, so please comment if any of you are still hanging around for updates and I'll post some updated pics.

Thursday, July 23, 2009

A Quick Update...

This motherhood thing is so under rated. No one tells you how wonderful it is to see your baby's smile first thing in the morning (even if is is 6:45) or to see her interact with a toy for the first time! I'm telling you working hard for something really does make you appreciate it even more. Sure there is the diapers and the spit up and the middle of the night feedings, but I even find a way to enjoy those!

We are all thriving, healthy and happy. Baby K is growing like a weed! 10lbs 4oz at last check and made it through our 8 week shots with only a little grumpiness!! She is a very happy contented baby and is making every day an adventure.

This is truly the happiest I have ever been in my life! Oh yeah, worked called and offered me another contract to start in September, I said no. I'm crazy, but I don't want to miss a moment with my little girl, that I worked soooo hard for!!! Work can wait... My baby will only be a baby for so long. Yeah, we're not rich, but who needs new clothes!!! I feel great about my decision, even if others think I am crazy!

Thursday, June 25, 2009

A New Understanding...

I have a new understanding of so many things that I thought I knew about. Things have really changed for me since becoming a parent. Starting with my freedom and motivation to blog. I thought I would blog religiously about my little one's life. But there just isn't the time or inclination!!

But this has been such a source of therapy for me during all the years of trying to get pregnant and through the ups and downs and even through my pregnancy. So I feel like I should close that chapter with the brief details of my baby girl's arrival.

First I awoke around 1:30 am, thinking something was going on, but it wasn't much and I thought perhaps it was just false labour or really good Brax.ton Hi.cks. By about 3:30 I woke up my dear husband to inform him, I think it was happening and although only the early stages, I was pretty sure he would be calling in absent to work the next morning. I no sooner got those words out and starting doing some last minute packing and baby room organizing just to take my mind off things, then my water broke.

So off I go to call the Midwife. She arrived an hour or so later and checked the baby's vitals etc. Things were pretty slow, so she told me to meet her at her office at 9:30, I tried to sleep but couldn't more due to my mental anxiety and apprehension then the contractions.

At 9:30 she checked I was 4cm. She wanted me to go the hospital and start some inducing meds to really get things going. By 4;4:30 I was fully dilated and ready to push. At 6:30 there was much progress and the OB on call came to check in with us. It was pretty uneventful labour the baby was doing fine, I had some drugs, it was ok. But the OB felt she just wasn't moving down so he called for a c-section at 7pm. There was an emergency c-section next door and I had to wait for that to be completed, so somewhere around 8:30, they took me into the OR and gave me a full spinal, it was an amazing feeling, everything felt better instantly. At 9:29 my beautiful baby girl make her first cries and entrance into the world. I got to see her briefly and then hubby took her off to the nursery and to seem my mom and best friend who were in the waiting room.

It was an amazing, indescribable experience. I was so glad I was awake, we have tons of pictures and my baby arrived and she is perfect, healthy and happy. The recovery was really relatively easy. Of course I was a bit sore but so running on adrenalin and love, I barely noticed my discomfort. I spent 4 days in the hospital, breast feeding didn't work out for us, but she is doing really well on formula.

She has been a pretty content baby. I have been getting a little sleep, and wouldn't trade a minute with her for anything. I have never felt so in awe and fulfilled in all my life. She truly is a miracle and I feel blessed each and every time I look into her eyes, even if she is wailing her head off at the time.

I'll do my best to post occasionally but I can already see how little time I have to get on the computer. I do keep checking in with all of you. A new chapter has definitely begun in my life.

To those of you yet to complete your journey to parenthood, all I can say is that every sacrifice and hardship I endured during those years where worth every ounce of heart ache and pain to get to where I stand right now. It brings tears to my eyes sometimes when I think about how lucky I am to be rocking my baby in the middle of the night.

Saturday, June 06, 2009

She's Here!!!

Sorry so long in updating, but boy have I been busy. Baby girl made her debut a few days early on May 20th. She weighed in at 7lbs 6.5oz and is just perfect. Labour & delivery was not that bad, although I ended up having a c-section due to 0 descent, after about 10 hours of labour.

She is the most beautiful baby I have ever seen. I am enjoying her immensely and even the sleepless nights are tolerable while looking at her sweet little face. I will try for a longer post in a few days with the birth story, but for now I am stealing a few precious moments while she sleeps.

I am complete...

Thursday, May 14, 2009

39 weeks?

I always thought I would deliver early. For this entire pegnancy, I thought, I'd be at least a week or 2 early. While I guess there is still time to be a little early. I am approachiung the week countdown. Saturday I'll be 39 weeks. I am really starting to get a bit anxious about labour, but at the same time I just want to get it over with.

Had my first internal today, only 1cm and baby is still fairly high. I know it really means nothing, but I was hoping to be ready to go soon!

I'll keep you posted.

Thursday, April 30, 2009

Still Hanging In...

I'm almost at the 37 week mark! And I am ready to have this baby. I'm starting to get to the huge uncomfortable stage and sleeping is no easy feat these days. But I have to say, I am grateful fro every uncomfortable moment, to know all of this will yield my daughter in the end. Can't wait for her to arrive and to hold her in my arms.

It seems as though we have been waiting on this day for years, and well, I guess we have. The last 3 1/2 years seem like a blur, I used to know all the dates of treatments and failures and how many times we did this and that, and what drugs I was in what amounts. Now it all seems jumbled together, all I see is my blossoming belly and the experience the thrill of feeling baby girl rolling around in there. As much as I am ready to have my body be my own again, i do love being pregnant and would go through this entire journey twice over just to get here. I know it will all be worth it in the end.

I'm off today for my 7th u/s!! Just to check position the midwife wants to be certain that baby girl is head down. It never hurts to have a peak at her!

I finished work last Friday and I can't wait to start the next phase of this miraculous journey, I know there will be challenges along the way, but there always are. I'm anxious about labour and delivery, but we'll do what we have to as always. I'll keep you posted!

Friday, March 27, 2009

32 Weeks and what a week!!!

First, I must say, I haven't had nearly as much time as I used to to blog. My new job has less private internet access, so I can't get on there and at home I'm too tired to engage the computer at night.

But here I am at 32 weeks. We had a little scare this week at our check up u/s. They flagged me as having low fluid. So they most frightening hauled me into the hospital for a non stress test, which is slightly scary at not even 32 weeks. I was hooked up to fetal monitors for about an hour and a portable ultrasound was given. All seemed ok. The fluid appeared perfectly normal levels at this one and the baby was doing just fine as far as movement and heart rate.

They are following me up with another ultrasound in 2 weeks, there is slight concern over the baby's abdominal measurement, I have been transferred to an ob (for now). I guess there main concern is the I.U.G.R., but I mean if you saw me and the size of me, you would wonder how that could be a consideration. I know that's not an accurate predictor, but really.

So I must admit I'm a little bit fearful at the moment, I'll feel better at this next u/s. But I am trying to not let the anxiety get the better of me. We've come this far and I know baby girl s going to be just fine. I have decided to take off work a little earlier than expected. I have not been told to leave work, so I am still working for now, I was hoping to work until 2 weeks before my dd. But I think I'll leave 2 weeks earlier than that. I probably don;t need the stress, and I want to ensure do all that I can to keep in the oven as long as possible and not be growth restricted.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

26 Weeks...

Wow, I suck at blogging lately. I have just been too busy being pregnant, working and prepping for baby girl's arrival.

I am still so in awe of this whole pg thing. I feel pretty normal at this point, other than my protruding belly and how tired I am. I feel baby girl in there banging around everyday now, some does she does more flips and kicks than others but mostly she moves around plenty enough to keep me reassured. i think she knows her mom is a paranoid freak and is quick to remind me that she is ok in there, thankfully.

Time is just flying i can't believe I am on the cusp of entering my third trimester. We have mostly finished the nursery, a few additions on the wall and minor things here and there, but it's painted, the furniture is in, it looks really good. My MIL even made up the crib with the bedding. We do need to get a blind and a lamp, but mostly we're done.

I registered at BRU and found there's not a lot I need, which is wonderful. Baby girl is the first grand baby all around, so the grandparents have gone mad buying us all the big gear. I got a couple gently used items from friends. But the things I need most now are outfits and towels and such. So I registered for the extras, that will be great if we get them, but aren't necessities.

A few parenting fears are creeping in here and there, sometimes I wonder how I will have the energy once she arrives, I am so bushed all of the time right now, I really hope that's a pg thing and I will regain some of my spunk not too long after delivery.

I have about 10 weeks left of work and I think I will be ready to go when it's time. I can't wait to have a year off!! Clark will be off for the summer with me, which will be great.

I have a few labour and delivery fears niggling at the back of my mind, but I figure I can't control how it will all happen, so I am trying to teach myself to roll with it. We start pre.natal classes in a week or so, so that should be interesting.

Mostly I am hanging out in my daughter's nursery feeling incredibly blessed.

Friday, January 09, 2009

IT"S A GIRL!!!!!

OMG!! I'm so excited I can barely type this!! We're having a baby girl. I am jumping for joy. The u/s went great baby girl is healthy and pretty much right on track. Just got the confirmation from the midwife, it's definately a girl!!

I didn't care which it was, but it makes it so real now knowing that it's going to be a little girl!! Oh my god, I am going to have a daughter!! How did I get from where I was a year a go to here??? I am so blessed!!

And I leave you with a belly shot, no you would't believe I am only 5 months along. But I was little chunky to begin with (although not this chunky)!!!

Sunday, January 04, 2009

Time Flies...

I can't believe that I haven't posted in over a month!!! The holidays flew by and I hit the half way point in my pregnancy, 20 weeks down and 20 weeks to go!!

Tomorrow is the big tell tale u/s. Hopefully I will be able to tell you all whether we are expecting a boy or a girl!! I don't care either way, I just wanted a healthy, happy baby, but I can't wait to decorate the nursery for our little miracle either way!!

Happy holidays and happy new year to all!! Stay tuned.