I have a new understanding of so many things that I thought I knew about. Things have really changed for me since becoming a parent. Starting with my freedom and motivation to blog. I thought I would blog religiously about my little one's life. But there just isn't the time or inclination!!
But this has been such a source of therapy for me during all the years of trying to get pregnant and through the ups and downs and even through my pregnancy. So I feel like I should close that chapter with the brief details of my baby girl's arrival.
First I awoke around 1:30 am, thinking something was going on, but it wasn't much and I thought perhaps it was just false labour or really good Brax.ton Hi.cks. By about 3:30 I woke up my dear husband to inform him, I think it was happening and although only the early stages, I was pretty sure he would be calling in absent to work the next morning. I no sooner got those words out and starting doing some last minute packing and baby room organizing just to take my mind off things, then my water broke.
So off I go to call the Midwife. She arrived an hour or so later and checked the baby's vitals etc. Things were pretty slow, so she told me to meet her at her office at 9:30, I tried to sleep but couldn't more due to my mental anxiety and apprehension then the contractions.
At 9:30 she checked I was 4cm. She wanted me to go the hospital and start some inducing meds to really get things going. By 4;4:30 I was fully dilated and ready to push. At 6:30 there was much progress and the OB on call came to check in with us. It was pretty uneventful labour the baby was doing fine, I had some drugs, it was ok. But the OB felt she just wasn't moving down so he called for a c-section at 7pm. There was an emergency c-section next door and I had to wait for that to be completed, so somewhere around 8:30, they took me into the OR and gave me a full spinal, it was an amazing feeling, everything felt better instantly. At 9:29 my beautiful baby girl make her first cries and entrance into the world. I got to see her briefly and then hubby took her off to the nursery and to seem my mom and best friend who were in the waiting room.
It was an amazing, indescribable experience. I was so glad I was awake, we have tons of pictures and my baby arrived and she is perfect, healthy and happy. The recovery was really relatively easy. Of course I was a bit sore but so running on adrenalin and love, I barely noticed my discomfort. I spent 4 days in the hospital, breast feeding didn't work out for us, but she is doing really well on formula.
She has been a pretty content baby. I have been getting a little sleep, and wouldn't trade a minute with her for anything. I have never felt so in awe and fulfilled in all my life. She truly is a miracle and I feel blessed each and every time I look into her eyes, even if she is wailing her head off at the time.
I'll do my best to post occasionally but I can already see how little time I have to get on the computer. I do keep checking in with all of you. A new chapter has definitely begun in my life.
To those of you yet to complete your journey to parenthood, all I can say is that every sacrifice and hardship I endured during those years where worth every ounce of heart ache and pain to get to where I stand right now. It brings tears to my eyes sometimes when I think about how lucky I am to be rocking my baby in the middle of the night.