I spoke with Dr. Optimistic's receptionist. She didn't seem to feel there was any cause for alarm that a heart beat could not be found. But then again what do these medical professionals seem alarmed about?
I live in a smallish city, so who knows how experienced the tech is with early u/s. We don;t have an infertility clinic in our city so us Ifers are usually sent to the big city. So I am hoping any one of the variables here could be the cause for the elusive heartbeat. I hope it is not worst case scenario.
I have a follow up u/s scheduled for Jan 19th, exactly 2 weeks from the first one. Dr. Optimistic did not want to see me in the office, she just set up the next u/s with a wait and see I guess. She wanted me to wait 2 weeks, I am guessing so they can see if further development has taken place since the first u/s.
OK, this waiting is going to kill me. My mom says not to worry she just knows everything will work out, she says I am paranoid because I worked so hard to get here and I want it so badly. I guess she is right, if I weren't a part of IF land, i wouldn't have even had an u/s yet. My Dr. usually doesn't schedule the first one until 11-12 weeks. But they wanted to check me for ectopic.
So that's were I am at, playing the waiting game. I guess nothing worthwhile is ever easy, but this is getting a bit ridiculous by my standards. I guess I had the misconception ( no pun intended) that once I actually got pg life would be all rainbows and lollipops. Guess I was wrong! I didn't know it would bring forth even more cause to be concerned and worried. Boy, was I naive.
I still feel kind of pukey and have extremely sore boobies (sorry tmi). Hope those are good signs. I will try to keep myself distracted over the next week and a half and hopefully I will make it through with out having a mental breakdown and my even bigger hope is that there is good news at the end of the tunnel. It might be a long week and a half!