Saturday, June 28, 2008

I make plans and God laughs...

My cycle was cancelled yesterday. I cannot tell you how utterly and totally disappointed I am. I am having a really hard time functioning today, I came home from work early yesterday. I might take Monday off.

My estra.diol was too low. It actually dropped. I can't believe it. At my scan yesterday morning there were 8 decent follies or so they thought. But they tell me with a drop in e2 that could indicate empty follies and they would hate for me to get all the way to retrieval and find we have no eggs!!! I guess I am glad that it got cancelled fairly early on. We get back 80% of our money at least.

I am really actually feeling quite angry. I know this is normal, I just feel like I can't catch a freakin' break no matter what I do. I have the everything is against me feelings right now. I'm just bummed out totally. I know there will be another cycle, it's just I had everything in place for this happen NOW!!!

The clinic says I can start my next ivf cycle as soon as I get my period which should follow it's normal cycle, so in 2-3 weeks, I guess.

I just can't believe this shit keeps happening to me. In better news Clark got a permanent position!!! Finally, so no more worrying about contracts every year!! However, the same day he found out, his car blew up!! So we are shopping for a new vehicle over the summer.

I'm going to try to scrape through the rest of the weekend, I'm going to have a drink tonight! Screw it!

6 comments:

Sugar&Ice said...

Oh...that is not what I was expecting at all. I am so sorry to hear this. The job news is great to hear, but the other, not so much. You're right that it's better to stop now than to get all the way to retrieval, but I can't even imagine how disappointing this must be. You're still in my prayers, and I hope so much that next time is it!

Honeycutt Family said...

UGH! I am so, so sorry! You are in my thoughts and prayers, girl!

P.S. I hope that when you say that Clarke's car blew up you don't mean it literally. :)

Mel said...

Oh, Hope, I am so sorry to read this.
I cannot even imagine what you must be feeling right now. There are no words to say, but I am praying for you and hoping for your peace.
*hugs*

Amber said...

Oh wow. That really sucks. I'm sorry. I hope the next few weeks fly by so you can get right back up on the IVF horse.

Kate said...

I am really sorry. Have lots of drinks!

Kirsten said...

Damn. I am sorry to read that. I am glad you had a little good news in the mix...you guys are due for much more and I hope it comes your way with the next cycle.