Tuesday, May 08, 2007

Ok, I think I have reached the 'Whatever' point...

So I had a GREAT weekend, my b-day was fantastic, I got great gifts, I got to spend time with all my close friends and family. My life rocks! My job is great, life in general is great.

I did however get my period on Friday. I know, bummer. But no surprise anymore. So I say 'whatever!" I'm done worrying about it. Whatever the universe has in store for me, is going to happen. I stopped taking the met, it was just making me too sick. I felt nauseous and barfy all the time, it didn't seem to be making any difference, conception wise. So I gave it up. I don't go back to the RE until August so until then I'm on a self imposed break. I will continue with the acupuncture and the Chinese herbs. But that's it.

I have already been living it up like my previous ttc self. I drank a bit over the weekend, I mean what the hell I had my period, so no worries. I got together with my pg friends and those with kids and barely even cringed when they talked about how their bellies were shaped during pg, what their toddler is doing now or when they are planning their next baby, etc. I mean don't get me wrong I'm not rushing out to pick up a birth control prescription or anything, I am just going to try not to make the focus of my life getting pregnant. I am away during the middle of my cycle this month, so it's pretty much a bust, I'll probably have to skip acupuncture and I won't even be in the same country as my husband, so whatever!

I am still working on organizing my house, I have made great leaps in de-cluttering closets. It's a work in progress, but it's moving forward. Now if I could only get Clark to finish off the few odd jobs he has started I'd be on cloud nine. My yard is looking spectacular. I planted my veggie garden, can't wait to see what actually grows. The herbs I planted indoors a few weeks ago have started to sprout! At least not everything in my life is barren! If I could only figure out how to post pics on this darn thing, I'd share the beauty of my spring garden with y'all!

Thanks for all the comments, I always feel the love. So my solemn vow to you and myself for the next 3 months is to avoid peeing on any kind of stick and to not think hourly about ttc. Let's see how that pans out for me.


hopeful to hateful in 28 days said...

It sounds like this will be a welcome break. it is so hard- on the one hand you feel like you can't waste any of your precious time. On the other hand you feel like you can't bear to go through another cycle. Enjoy the time off- drink caffeine and booze and have sex because you actually want to!

Sarah said...

good for you for not letting infertility rule your life (at least, not ALL the time).

Bumble said...

Hi hope! Good on you for having such a wonderful attitude. I wish I could do it too. Enjoy the break, you deserve it!